Birthday Bender

I'm officially 26 now and boy oh boy, celebrations lasted for 5 days...imagine, I could have been unofficially 31...Celebrations were quite wild, needless to say - 5 day bender. Go figure. Regret not getting any snaps, unless I get hold of the media to spare a few. Had a lot of guests, got to know even more. Overall, I enjoyed myself although I didn't overdo the bubbly.

Koh the Saxman gave a 5 song sax performance. What a birthday present that was. Thailand's own Kenny G, even some say he's better. Then there was a catwalk by some of Thailand's top models. It was a tad disappointing as they seemed unenthusiatic. Shrugs. Models..maybe some forgot to powder their noses before hitting the runway.

Its already December...Wow! Christmas is just round the corner. Can already feel the holiday cheer warming up. Lots of work to clear up then a deserved trip back home to visit family and friends.
Cheers..

Cautious

This past month has been a challenging one. Never before would I expect to make such life altering decisions at this age. In my previous post Ben-ja-ped I had forewarned myself it would be a real test during my quarter century experience. I went to the temple to make merit and also paid my respects to the revered Four Faced Buddha and asked for guidance.

Next week I turn 26 and some friends have already plotted something, but I'm all set to miss the appointed dinner for a meeting instead at the new factory site. However, they reiterated dinner wasn't the main agenda...now that's what I'm afraid of.

Easy Come, Easy Go

Today's meeting with a fellow countryman client went positive although no contracts were yet signed. His official visit to our factory was to conduct an audit as a compulsory adherence to an ISO 9002 certified entity. Poor fella, the weather was so hot he was struggling and with Ramadan(Muslim fasting month)didn't help his definite dry throat after such a lengthy discussion.

He insisted I acknowledge him on a first name basis and it was a bit awkward. Prior to meeting up, we exchanged e-mails and phone conversations and I'd always address him with a title before a name. The pro's about this is it makes the discussions quasi serious/casual. Overall : Good. I know I do tense up at discussions so this situation worked to my advantage.

At one stage of our conversation, we talked about government agencies backing local companies in the health sector. In Malaysia, the ethnic Malays(muslims) are what we call "Bumiputra(s)" or Bumi's for short and they are given certain privileges compared to the remaining two races(Chinese and Indian)in society. The government backs a lot of Bumi companies by approving business loans, some at very large amounts. Some companies have visionary leaders but unfortunately less ambitious employees and some have extremely capable hired help with an extremely incompetent leader. He tells me every year, government throws away millions of our Malaysian Ringgit(RM) to these establishments.

I could relate to his comments as I recalled a friend who was an apprentice at one of the Big Four accounting firms, attended a meeting with the head of the government's financial arm. Every question she posed to the official, the reply would be "Not sure", "Have to get back to you", "Haven't thought about it yet", or the very common words one would hear in the Malaysian culture "Tak Tau"(I don't know). Being the head of the largest government financial institute, one's decisions are critical especially to the local and foreign companies who need to know about its governance and policies. And my friend was only an apprentice...

I used to think the Bumiputras were so lucky with financial backing from the government. In time, it can only take off and prosper with the means in the first place. Its just sad seeing so much money go to such waste. Some have folded with an unimaginable loss due to less than abled leader's guidance. Its a bit prejudice one would say, any business could go bankrupt but how does one make an institute with some hundred million(RM) in government backing go under?

Its not my place to say anything, but I do reserve the right to my opinions eventhough I am just a young adult trying to cut it in the business world. Some are luckier than others, some have to walk the extra mile just to make enough, while some just get there with the snap of their fingers. To those who strive harder to get there its definitely more worth it, I'm sure we tend to appreciate it a whole lot more with that befitting satisfaction.

Recharging the Soul

Its been a very satisfying break for the past 2 weeks. Heading back, just relaxing, chilling with the family and friends recharged the soul. Managed to pack in a few pounds at the same time too. Realized living all alone in another country makes you see you're working your butt off to do your parents proud and achieve your desired goals.

In Bangkok, I seem to thrive on making it in life. The loneliness and self-disclipine spurs you on to challenge your inner demons. It wasn't easy leaving home, the place of comfort, where one is so used to getting pampered, where striving really isn't on the menu but more of taking-it-as-it-comes. I thank my parents for giving me this opportunity, for they reluctantly allowed me the freedom to choose my preferred destination or profession. Their continuous backing is what I always hold close to my heart, and that's probably why day in, day out I live life as a workaholic.

Fact of the matter is I had a great time-out, nowhere better to enjoy it than your home base. To my great bunch of (skirt-wearing)friends -LOL-, thanks for coming out for the chats and beers. Wish you guys the very best in your working paths and that of your love lives. Don't ever be a stranger...

Wednesday

For a change, I'm back at the apartment earlier than usual. The week's flown by at light speed and I'm looking forward to Friday when I'm headed back home! Or am I...Doctor's appointment has already been made on the day of my arrival so I'm cringing nervously. Haven't thought much about it, being caught up with work sure takes your mind off your well-being.

Been clearing up company issues before heading back to Malaysia. Still awaiting bankers' decision after evaluating the new manufacturing plant. Time is of the essence. Apart from that, had a wonderful dinner with clients from Beijing. Real classy ladies. Spoke excellent English, although the other was more fluent in Mandarin/Cantonese. At the end of the night, I was presented with a Mont Blanc pen! Real classy. Penning Beijing as destination for November. Been hearing so much about it, gotta see for myself.

Apart from that, I'm totally over the moon as I'm going to be an uncle. Whoa..geez, not sure if I'm ready for that but heck I'm so excited. Finally, after almost 5 years of marriage, my brother and the Mrs. are going to have a family. Mum was even more excited as she texted me the wonderful news. I guess she can't wait to be a grandmother. Bless her.

Time waits for no man

Aaah, finally some time to catch up on some blogging. Well, its been quite a fortnight. Trade show went really well, better than we'd expected actually. Managed to close our booth 3 hours before time on the final trade day. The company's first time, partners' first time, my first time! It was quite exciting and the response was great.

Many traders who came to speak to us were surprised at our age. It actually took some convincing. Nevertheless, we were happy to be out there. Our main goal was to introduce ourselves, our methods of production and also getting to know clients. Currently, all major spa companies in Thailand are already our clients, and more to come from various parts of the world. I received an e-mail inviting our company to join the trade show in Dubai and Malaysia. I see a window of opportunity to do a stopover in Penang hehehe.

I'm planning to trip back home anyways as I've discovered a lump/cyst. Would like a second opinion from doctors I frequent. Kinda nervous about it. Hopefully its nothing.
Can't believe its already Sunday, the week goes by so quickly these days. Was at the factory till late in the evening today, so there goes my much needed R&R. Tomorrow's a big day - bringing two bankers over to our new factory 2 hours away from Bangkok, to evaluate its worth for some capital injection.

Right, time for a nice shower and its off to La-La-Land.

Light Monday

I love this joke and seem to laugh over and over again everytime I read it

The Los Angeles Police Department (LAPD), The FBI, and the CIA are all trying to prove that they are the best at apprehending criminals.
The President decides to give them a test.
He releases a rabbit into the forest and each of them has to catch it.

The CIA goes in. They place animal informants throughout the forest. They question all plant and mineral witnesses. After three months of extensive investigations they conclude that rabbits do not exist.

The FBI goes in. After two weeks with no leads they burn the forest, killing everything in it, including the rabbit. They make no apologies. The rabbit had it coming.

The LAPD goes in. They come out two hours later with a badly beaten bear. The bear is yelling: "Okay! Okay! I'm a rabbit! I'm a rabbit!"

BKk

*Hoot* *Hooooooooooot*

The fog horn blows as another ship leaves Port Klong Toey.

My condo overlooks the Bangkok port and I see everynight, cranes picking up cargos' and transferring them onboard for shipment. Its beautiful at night, with the lights orangey blending together the yellowness of the giant cranes. After a long day at the office, I come back, put on some music and glance out the balcony of this. Everynight. Moments before crashing out till the very next morning.

Work has been hectic. The company's expanding and I'm glad to be playing a keyrole in it heading north. I'm actually heading the business development department, and smiled when it was given to me as its also the same position as my brother, Shanne's.
We're presently busy preparing for the trade show coming up in a fortnight's time. We're expecting some interested multinational companies dropping by to visit our booths, so one can imagine the preparations for such an event.

At any rate, things are looking fine at the moment. Enjoying the challenges being thrown at. Kinda miss home, as in family, dogs Austin & Sandy, friends, and the simplicity that is so abundant in Penang. Pace of Bangkok life is perfect for my age, as some would prefer the term yuppies. Funny thing is, I always lose myself when in a restaurant with clients or dinner meetings. I'd look at their decos, tables, chairs, cutlery, waiters appearance, service, quality, comfortness...and I'd zap back again into reality.

When I've build up this company, I shall...no, I will open up another restaurant. And here I thought the F&B spirit had died...Cheers to the future.

This is my last post from Penang island. The past week has been very memorable and emotionally draining. I just want to thank my really wonderful crew for setting up two farewell drinking and dinner sessions. Really gonna miss you guys. Just a short post, as its 4 hours before I get up and 6 more before my plane departs.

Don't worry guys, I'll never forget my roots and I sure as hell won't forget my buddies. If all goes well, I'd like for you all to visit me during the opening of our new plant. We've always talked about achieving success in our lives, and if all goes to plan, I'd like to celebrate that moment with no one else but you guys and my family. Our frienship together has helped toughen each other and instill the sheer hunger for making it in life. For that, we have each of us to thank for.

So my friends, be the best you can be and always strive to aim for the top. I'm really going to miss you fools a lot.

Bittersweet

Feeling better, although its an off-on kinda behavioral pattern. Had a nice farewell dinner plus chit chat with family and a good time chilling after with the crew. Bill got back from his business trip from China so it was good seeing him again. KrishakaGrumps joined up later with some encouraging news of his first posting overseas by the company in India. Really happy for him. It was time the bright lights were shown upon him. I expect to see him in Bangkok in the near future.

Took a long, slow jog this evening around the neighbourhood. Of all the times I been doing that, today was the first time I really took to the surroundings. The weather was perfect, light sun with intermittent breeze. Left, right, left right. My heart beating faster as my steps quicken. I'm going to miss all this when I'm in the big city. No more laid back lifestyle. Its all ball busting from here. Suddenly I realized I didn't entirely want to leave. However, a challenge lies ahead, so what does one do? Back away? No siree. Going to grab this opportunity with both hands. Just taking some time to absorb what I'll be missing. I don't think anyone can argue with me when I say we take almost everything for granted. When its time to part, all the good memories rush out like gushing water from a broken hydrant.

Anyways, lots of nostalgia at the moment. Last weekend was forgetful. I am however, getting thru the pain of that numbing insensation. It only enhances my believe of fate - whatever happens, happens for a reason. You can quote me on that. Getting on with life. As I know it, so does someone special in my life. I've got a world to conquer.

May the force be with me...

Life goes on

Suffering personal losses are a real devastation in life, that goes without saying. Sometimes when its others' losses, we're not as adversely affected as they are. At most, we sympathize with their misfortune, bemoaning their unfortunate luck. Just like the 9/11, where so many were killed especially while running down the fire escape to exit WTC, or the plane that drove into the buildings' destruction with passengers seemingly knowing their fate. The tsunami devastation that wiped out some islands and its population which included holidaymakers in parts of Asia. The London bombings which took the lives of some, who heard the news of the underground destruction, then took the no.30 bus instead leading to their fated demise.

We all pick ourselves up and move on with life...in time. As the saying goes 'Life goes on'. We continue living for we are still alive, and those who perished would have wanted us to do what they won't be able to.
I too, suffered a personal loss. Devastated? Immensely. Feelings? Numb. Thoughts? Lost. I won't disclose this loss on my blog, as its a personal one that requires anonymity. I am however, writing this entry as a statement of going on living to the fullest as possible because we are, after all, still alive and potential for leaps and bounds.

Life throws us a lot of uncertainties which makes life unpredictable. Sometimes, it hits you when you least expect it. I know this devastation will blow over after some time, if I don't seem in high spirits of late, please excuse the partypooper in me. I will however try and put the saying into action because if I don't, I shouldn't have the luxury of living anyways...

Fate and its blessings

At the moment, I am sorting out for some personal effects to be sold and one of them is my wheels. Trusty Beemer, went on the papers the first day and I was flooded with calls while still in bed. Had some people all the way from KL inquiring, some nice father's asking on behalf of their sons, some rude 2nd hand car dealers and some idiots who ask about details already stated in the ad on the papers.

Was a slow Monday as I drove to the restaurant. The weathers been unbearable of late. Universal climate is somewhat screwed up. As I drive by, head turning left and right searching for a parking lot, a motorcyclist reverses and knocks into my passenger side door. I was truly annoyed.

I got down and confronted the culprit for his carelessness. He seemed old and his slow movement justified it, but I wasn't sure with his shades covering.

He was quiet as I questioned his way of compensation. At that point I began to calm down a little as he seemed rather lost for an explanation.

The thing that boiled my blood was this unassuming indian bloke walking by and telling me I wasn't supposed to enter this road. I immediately lashed back about how on earth did these vehicles managed to park the same direction and promptly told him to piss off.

At that point I almost lost the plot. My car's obviously evident dent. Target selling price will now take a dip.
Simultaneously the culprit who fender bendered my ride took off his shades to reveal an old, sickly looking bloke. He had transparent eyes that somehow looked connected to his deteriorating health.

He offered me RM50 for the damage. I said it was only good for workmanship fee alone and not the repairs. He countered he wasn't well off and was seeking free treatment from the clinic a few blocks from the restaurant. He really did look ill, however I was still seething from my misfortune and having to bear the repair costs.

I took it off him and trodded back to the restaurant. While pacing back I could feel myself trembling. It was the tremble from the sight that kept replaying in my mind. His pitiful facial expression.

As I look back at the scenario when he reached into his wallet to find a fifty, he had this look of daze. Wondering how he would be able to recoup that lost fifty for other neccessary uses.
As he handed me the bill, I could see he was close to tears.

There was nothing but flashbacks and I thought to myself about the whole incident again. Yes, he does look sickly.
Yes, the clinic he sought help was famous for its free treatment. Did I mentioned he looked frail? Everything suddenly was clear in my mind. I felt so guilty. So guilty that I was my concious was eating me up replaying the scenario over and over again.

The damage was easily ten times more but I made a decision.

I headed towards the clinic, with the nearby shops all looking at me from the earlier confrontation. They're probably thinking I'm going to demand more for the damage. I tapped the poor gentleman on the shoulder and he turned.

I say softly as a packed clinic hushed to eavesdrop. "Sir, its ok. Please use the money for your treatment. And ride carefully".

His expression changed and I will never forget his smile.
Like the ones we see from elderly people we help cross the street, or the ones we turn to say hi in our early morning jogs. I could see the people around the clinic whispering to each other while looking at me. I didn't care if it was praise or scorn. I walked out of there with my conscience clear and feeling a sense of relief. I looked back, my thoughts centered around his face, which I suddenly replaced with my dad's or even myself. I would have wanted that person to do the same too.

I am glad I did what I did. I am glad my parents instilled morality throughout my life. I am glad my religion taught me to forgive and forget. Most of all, I am glad I could make someone, with an unfortunate condition...

Smile.

Back

What a week its been. Past seven days were not wasted at all in Bangkok. In fact I wasn't even able to get souvenirs for friends and family. However, on the work front things seem to be positive. After inspecting the production line, studying the market potential and assessing the future of this entity, I decided to join Earth Born.

Its a total change from the restaurant biz but like I said, I've always wanted to be in the export front. I shall be joining in the capacity of International Sales Coordinator overseeing the foreign sales portfolio. I will soon be packing my bags and heading over to Thailand's capital to begin my new profession.

I'm sad leaving the food business that I have grown fond of, but everyone evaluates their potential and makes a decision that may vary. A new challenge is on the cards and I am both excited and nervous about this transition. I shall be leaving with a heavy heart especially when I've become closer to friends and family than ever before, but they have been great in supportiing and offering their best to my future.

I know there's someone who is equally thrilled with my transition. Thank you for believing in me even sometimes venting frustrations, I know deep down you care. I intend to work doubly hard. I am glad you inspire me.

Really am.

Winds of change?

There seems to be a winds of change at the career frontier. I am taking some time off to go Bangkok and study up about Virgin Coconut Oil(VCO). My ex university mates have founded a company, Earth Born Co,. Ltd - the only company on the planet to have a unique way of extracting VCO without compromising the amounts of left over nutrients.

I believe frienships forged during university life always has its blessings. We were a close knit group back in those days and knew each other inside out. I remembered last year during my visit to Bangkok to attend the funeral of a group members' father. There was a discussion then about hatching this idea and as time passed I thought it couldn't conceived, therefore shelved. Just recently I get a call from one of them asking me to jump on board this venture.

This sorta puts me in a fix as I'm actually working towards an expansion for the restaurant. I figure I'll just correspond from home for the time being and see thru the completion of the successful expansion, then the picture will be clearer. Mumsy and pops have given me their support for whatever decision I come to and that's really sweet. Guess they only want me to be happy.

So off I go to an adventure totally new and unknown, but its the challenge that excites me. I've always wanted to go into the exporting business. Too bad pops retired before I could join him. So now I'm presented with a golden opportunity and I shall take it with both hands. This slow, laid back town is making me stale. This could be just the thing to recharge myself.

Wish me luck...

Ignorance

It was a beautiful day while driving to the restaurant. I was in good spirits, singing along to Maroon 5's 'Sunday Morning' playing on the radio. At the traffic lights I come to a stop behind a brand spanking new Mercedes Benz C200 Kompressor. I was admiring the shape of the lights, the color on this fine machine when suddenly a can of drink was unceremoniously thrown out from the driver's side!

I was utterly amazed. You would think a person being able to afford a car made by a first world nation would at the very least have some first world manners. I just couldn't believe it. Mind you it was on a busy road and not anywhere near the curb so the council cleaners can get rid of it. Nevermind that, the main point is one being able to drive an RM200 over thousand car would at least have some education about littering. I shook my head in total disbelief.

Why is it that we have first world facilities but with a third world mentality? Here we are complaining day in day out to the city council about beautifying the city when we can't even cooperate in keeping it clean? What's the big deal in reaching your destination and depositing the rubbish into a waste basket or a trash bin?

Come on people, I'm not trying to make this world a better environment but we can all do our part in not being a litter bug. Rubbish bins are where the rubbish go. Not floors, roads, rivers, drains, and what I really was amazed while driving was the signage.
I actually laughed because it was a DENDA RM500 MEMBUANG SAMPAH SINI sign and around it was nothing but rubbish! All lying in a neat pile right under the penalty sign!

Maybe its just human behavior. Like the saying 'Rules are meant to be broken' comes to mind. Even in my restaurant, with the sign emblazooned 'NO SMOKING', I still get muppets lighting up on a busy lunch or a crowded dinner. Hello? Did you see any ashtrays on your table or others? Its nice when I have regulars telling the next table its a smoke-free restaurant and pointing to the warning across them. (They then embarrasingly stub out their ciggarettes)

I can only sum these behaviors up as one thing - Ignorance...

Monday...Blues?

I was annoyingly distracted at the restaurant of an issue that's been agonizing me this year. Due to my inability to halt a component in my system called 'feelings', I am therefore suffering the consequences. Closure has always been something I've had trouble achieving but finally rendering it as time goes by. Maybe its actually denial, rather than closure? Could be.

For a while now I've been pretty contented with my personal life as it is. P and I managed to come to an understanding about our feelings. Since then I feel happy because we're still entwined in each other's lives. We miss each other, but we don't say it. We feel it in the tone of our voices. P and I have a funny relationship. We obviously care for each other, but we aren't together. Officially or unofficially. There's still the fluttering heart when we see each other. Still the warm and beautiful moments everytime we're within each other.

The thing is its driving me crazy. Good feelings such as these are so so truly hard to find. So why are we doing this? One part of me just prefers it if this ended, but the other part of me? The other part of me actually sees her vividly in my life. Its like..picture perfect. Too scared to let go of a potentially good thing but also too cautious not to rush into uncertainty.
I play down this feeling. P will be back soon and from there we can slowly see if things work out.

"I might not come back till next year" she says.

She then proceeds to explain about her internship during the summer, holiday with friends and travel itinerary with parents. I was lost for words. All of a sudden my heart sank. We've maintained our confusing-yet-wanting relationship to a cautious extent, whereby we have our commitments in life that take first priority. So there's an understanding which makes us feel great about each other.

Last night's conversation just blew me away. Now I'm really afraid that the perfect momentum we've been maintaining just so to pass over before we can see each other again, will have taken a backseat. Sometimes, the reason we maintain our focus of such a behavior(of not exercizing our true feelings)is because we see a better time for it to happen therefore refrain. What happens now? Its the last day of May and we're talking about 6 months...minimum!

Maybe I should just move on and not linger in this love hazard. I don't know where this is headed and judging from this scenario, it doesn't look like its going to go too smoothly.
So many thoughts are running through my head. Why can't I just go with a person who is physically and mentally available here? Why is it my mind keeps telling me to go deeper, further into the unknown to find out..if I can be happy as I once was.

Just then, the phone rang and I was disconnected from my trip to La La Land.

Our elusive relationship is what propels me to want it to happen. Distance is a barrier, and true to its Thai saying -"Rak Tae Pae Klai Chid" (True love succumbs to close proximity).

Rekindling the past

Over the weekend, my mates and I dropped by a watering hole to convey our birthday wishes to a friend. I'd been there before. Lounge set up. Light music. Sofas' and comfy cushioned chairs of oak trimming. Various alcohol selections on menu. Perfect for business chats, family outings, close-knit group outings, and basically honeymoon period couples.

As I reached the second floor the music tempo was different from its usual fair. It was hard house blasting out speakers. There were at least 80 guests. He greeted us and we in turn wished him many happy returns. Then I realized it was a private party and immediately was transported back in time to my Bangkok Daze.

During my tenure as an artist-rep at a well known events management firm, I attended gazillions of private parties -drugs, alcohol, celebrities, gorgeous women, corporate bigwigs. Basically if you've been to one, you've been to all.

Why?

See, at one private party you'll meet the same people again and again at future private parties. These are the people who can't seem to stay away from the limelight.
I had the distinct pleasure to be introduced to Sonya Couling and Methinee Kingprayom -two of Thailand's best known supermodels.
I didn't last long at these parties cause I was already too knackered babysitting so-and-so who has come into the kingdom for a performance, but it looked exactly alike from my time in the city of angels.

I stood there smiling and saying hi to a few familiar faces for a maximum 20 minutes before bolting out of the noisy party. I've never seen a private party in full swing before on this island, so it was a real culture surprise in a way. But for that full twenty minutes, I was able to feel like I was back there again. How often is one able to relive the memory of the past even just as a bystander?

Rarely...

Shanne:"Is it possible for Michelle to get me a Liverpool shirt?"
I didn't even wanna ask why..
Shanne:"Maybe you could ask for me. Oh did you know Liverpool won?"
Jeremy:"I know they won. You left when the score was 0-3, remember?"
Shanne:"Ok, just thought you might like to know."

Prick was trying to wind me up cause I was cheering when Crespo hit the third. Grrr...

Cheers

I am in mourning. Milan lost. After leading 3-0 before half-time, the Italians lost their concentration in the second half and allowed Liverpool to regain their composure to square the game 3-3 and finally bringing it to a penalty shootout after the same scoreline as extra time expired.

Complacency came back and bit their arses with the semi-final clash against PSV Eindhoven a classic example. This time there was no Massimo Ambrosini. How incredibly Liverpool's usually error-prone keeper -Jerzy Dudek - kept out Shevchenko's extra time bullet header and follow up out? I have no idea. I had a gut feeling with those misses, the game looked to be swinging Liverpool's way.

Kudos to the English side for their fightback. They deserved it more than their opposition. Gerrard proved himself to be a true captain by inspiring his team to rise from the dead, and now, champions once again in Europe. I'm pretty sure my brother will be so thrilled. He left the tv room as soon as Milan scored the 3rd goal during the first half. How would that be to wake up finding your team winning the Champions League after being three goals down? Totally wicked.

Well done, Liverpool. Congratulations.

"Ben-ja-paed"

We believe in Thai culture of males in their mid twenties i.e. 25, are entering a phase in their lives. That is what we call "Ben-ja-paed". In another words, it will be a tricky period of that individual.

Currently I am in that phase and I really need to watch my step. Last night I got into an accident with a motorbike -with no headlights on. Him hitting me was bad enough but as I helped him upright his fallen machine, stepped on and broke his fallen side mirror. Great. Whether its a myth or not, I just hope I won't be subjected to seven unfortunate years.

One of my cooks explained to me in detailed that its like a make or break phase, either you hit it right or fail and fail miserably. That is why it is a strong belief one should make merit from time to time at temples. Then again, its up to individuals to believe this or not but in situation where this heritage is part of me, I'll just be very careful about my moves for the year. 'Better safe than sorry'.

Day off rant

Shit, I need to blow off some steam. On a positive note, a cigarette didn't come to mind. Funny how I thrived on them and now, I totally despise everything about it. Usually if I'm stressed out I'd go to the gym and torture the body but I've just had a late lunch so I'll let time pass for now.

The neighbours' youngest is playing the violin, one of the many musical tuitions her parents have given. Now I hear piano. Is it the school holidays?? Hmm..Usually they'll be on one of their instruments but only on the weekends and the school holidays. They're pretty decent, for their age I should say they're not bad at all.

I never learned any musical instruments during my childhood. It was mostly tennis and BB guns. A tiny regret. Wish I played the piano or the guitar. Maybe even the saxophone. I think its such a personal achievement for any guy to be able to enthral an audience, a friend, a loved one or anyone with their musical ability. Its not too late, but I haven't the luxury of time. I'll keep that in future reference.

I salute guys especially who are able to impress with their musical talents. Just seems like they had a more meaningful childhood. Mine was, just not in a musical sense.

Fish with lesser bones?

So today I had two very gorgeous patrons for dinner. One of which was at least 174cm tall, looked like a China doll with a hairstyle similar to Moe of 'The 3 Stooges'. I gave them some time to study our menu before waiting on them.

The usuals were ordered. Tom yum goong, crispy fried kang kong, mango kerabu salad and the popular, steamed Lemon fish. "Get me smaller fish. Too big cannot finish. Also find fish with less bone one".

For a moment there, one of my eyebrows rose while looking at her and trying to fathom her request. How on earth does one find a fish with less bone? I smiled as I jotted down China doll's order and went into the kitchen to translate it to my team of chefs. They were on the floor laughing at my order of such a request. I too laughed hard when those words came out from my mouth.

Being in the food business for six years, I'm not entire sure if there's anyone who could tell a fish with lesser bones. Hmm..I'll have to ask my supplier that question.

Got me thinking..

Forza Milan

I'm happy AC Milan made it to the finals of this season's UEFA Champions League. I admit they rode their luck thru both legs of the semi-finals against a fascinating PSV Eindhoven. The difference between the two sides was one took their chances clinically and the other just couldn't find their finishing touch.
I salute PSV's skipper, Mark Van Bommel for his performance and his never-give-up attitude but I couldn't accept the moaning he gave of playing better in the two legged series and to end up as the losing side. Well, Mark...in football, you don't just play 90 minutes, you play till the final whistle is blown and yes, your courageous and valiant fightback and performance were outstanding but at the end of the day if you let your guard down, you pay for it.

Credit can't be taken away from Milan for their converted chances, and also, ladyluck. It was their luck that PSV forgot their shooting boots in the first leg and lapse in concerntration in the second that allowed Ambrosini to plant a header past Gomes.
Hopefully Milan will take caution of their form when they take on Liverpool on the 25th of May. They just lost to arch-rivals, Juventus over the weekend which puts the latter in pole position to reclaim the scudetto from Milan. At least if they cease the Serie A crown, they will welcome back the Champions League trophy they secured in 2003.

Carlo Ancelotti has done a wonderful job at the San Siro by giving the opportunity to the vastly talented playmaker, Andrea Pirlo to shine. Pirlo had been languishing on the bench at Inter Milan before he was snapped up by Ancelotti and has been the mainstay of the engine room. With the emergence of Kaka, a brilliant talent who has kept Potuguese legend Rui Costa on the bench with scintilating displays has propelled the Serie A giants to familiar territory.
Milan were in doldrums when Fatih Terim took the reigns and was duly dispatched barely completing one season.

With Maldini, Nesta and Stam(when both not injured) marshalling a tight and fearsome defence, the midfield then reinforced with another protective layer in the shape of Gennaro Gattuso, a human pitbull breaking down play and distributing it to attackers with panache. In Clarence Seedorf we have another Dutch legend who has won three champions league medal with three different teams. Kaka is then given the license to roam just in front of the midfield to supply defence splitting passes to the lethal Andrei Shevchenko. The current European Footballer of the Year has been in fine form and it was he who drew first blood against PSV in the first leg of their semi-final clash.

I am however a very big fan of the Rossoneri captain, Paolo Maldini. He is undoubtedly an inspiration and is an icon at the Giuseppe Meazza. At 36 years of age, he is still a classy and competitive professional who is widely regarded as the best full-back of his era. Although not as fast as in his prime, he is still able to time his tackles perfectly and keep a tight leash on the opposite's offense. He reminds me of a typical Spartan soldier back in the Roman period. I hope Milan will win it for Maldini for all he has symbolized at the San Siro. A loyal servant who has spent his entire career at the club right from the youth setup. As a Milan tifosi(fan in Italian), I wish them the very best for this long, weary season with the triumph of the coveted, Champions League 2005.

Snatch

There was a case of snatch thef today around the restaurant. Apparently the thief had snatched a necklace off a bloke! What a genius. His accomplice fled the scene on a bike and he had to run for his life. A motorist, upon witnessing the incident gave chase in his car and as he neared the culprit, opened the driver's side door causing the robber to fall. The victim gave chase and shouted to the coffee shop just behind the restaurant for help and an entourage of hawkers and patrons stormed out to give this thief a beating he will never forget.

Apparently the daughter in-law of the coffee shop operator had her handbag snatched off her yesterday after having dinner at my restaurant. So her husband must have vented a lot of anger on this luckless thief. They certainly gave him a good beating before letting the authorities haul him away. I would have joined in but there was no room to stick my foot in. There you go, crime doesn't pay.

Shite day but great recovery

Today will go down as a rather unfortunate day for me. Since Shanne was away on business, I thought I'd be a considerate soul and pump his car with some petrol so it would save his missus the hassle of doing it on the way to work. All was fair just when I was turning off Western Rd, third in line when the first car stopped in the middle of the road! To my horror leaving me exposed to the oncoming traffic!! By the time I realized he'd stopped I crashed right into the second car. I was fuming because there wasn't any reason for him to do so. Then I realized he was from outstation(Kedah number plate, go figure) but still one doesn't stop in the middle of the road regardless of what state or country. What annoyed me was he looked back and saw what he caused and slowly drove off...Grrr!!!

Went down, apologized profusedly to the lady driver who happened to be taking her sick son to the clinic. She understood and pointed the finger at the outstation car in front of her for stopping suddenly. A quick call and her husband came to asses the damage(he being in the auto industry)and we both called our own mechanics about the price. An agreement was struck at RM240 for a broken tail light and he duly followed me to get the amount at a nearby cash dispenser. By this time, I was already running late to the restaurant, and not to mention having to tell dad I'd crashed my brother's car. I could picture his lecture already.
True enough as I was given a tongue lashing firstly for driving his car instead of mine, secondly for following too closely, and third for rushing.

Shanne was way cooler. He called from China when he'd heard about the news.
S:What happened?
J:Car stopped in the middle of the road and I couldn't jam the breaks in time
S:You ok?
J:Yeah
S:I've called the mechanic. He'll pick it up tomorrow in the morning. Don't worry.
J:Sorry...
S:No worries. Drive safe. You owe me one. See you when I get back.
J:Cheers

The damage could have been worst, but thankfully it wasn't. I rushed a bit but like many things in life it was unexpected. I was touched by his gesture. Anybody would after a tongue lashing from pops!! Guess that's pops way of showing his concern (=
From now on, I shall be keeping my distance from outstation cars...especially ones from Kedah!!

Perfect Sunday morning

The weekend went by without any nightlife activity so I managed to sleep early and got up fresh on a Sunday morning to go hiking. I'm quite pleased with the progress I've been making with a plus for quitting smoking altogether.
I managed to trek the youth park path all the way till number 10. I can't remember when was the last time I've ever been to that point..or maybe its even my first! I've always trekked to number 5 but I'm not sure about 10.

Anyways, I feel great finding a new and healthy lifestyle to live by. Gone are the smoking days, beer guzzling sessions. Jogging, gyming and hiking are to be a new curriculum. Getting fresh air, exercizing the body and mind, seeing nature, pushing oneself. I tagged along with me a camera just in case but I always think to myself as the reward to goin up -The view.
Overlooking the main part of the city, its skyscrapers, the sea and not forgetting the Penang bridge. What a sigh.

I'll always remember what dad taught me. He said if we worked really hard, they'd always be a reward at the end of your task..For me on that beautiful Sunday morning, it was this...

Penang bridge from afar

Breathtaking view at no.5

KUALA LUMPUR

My procrastination has unduely been the reason for absent blogs. So anyways, I was up in KL looking at restaurant prospects last week and realized the capital is spoilt for choice when it comes to eating. Every corner of the city has either a mamak stall/chain, coffee shops, a small scale restaurant, a joo char restaurant, an upscale restaurant, a cafe or some form or another related to satisfying one's hunger.

Seems everybody is so occupied in the rat race that they barely have time to cook! But I guess its always like that in the city. I remember how many times I cooked during my duration in Bangkok..So naturally I was happy when I came home during holidays for a home cooked meal.
Anyhows, prospects seem good altho deciding on a location is a bit of a dilemma right now. Mon Kiara seems a likely prospect eventhough rental is CRAZEE. I mean the going rate on a 400 plus square feet studio apartment is RM160,000 or RM2,000 a pop every month..quite ridiculous, but hey that's where everybody wants to be.

Traffic is just a torture. I even instructed the agent to look into getting an apartment within walking distance or, or a 5-10 minute drive. I was very specific that if you find an available lot for a restaurant, you'll also have to find an available apartment nearby. That's the deal.
One thing I can't stand in KL are the cab drivers. During my trip there, I met only ONE who went by the meter. The rest of them had the cheek to name their price to the mentioned destination. They'd rather just sit in their cars and wait for a sucker to agree to their demands, otherwise they won't budge. Come on, is that how you wanna make a living? Its a tough life mate, but everyone's gotta work hard, put food on the table and not wanting to pull your weight around. I must say, so far I've met chinese cab drivers who are sensible to go by the meters. End of the day, you get business and that's money in your pocket. I guess next time I'll have to remember to get the number of a cab company and give them a call whenever I need to move around, I don't mind being charged extra for using their service, but at least I know I'm not being subjected to extortion!

Oh well, let's see how things go...In a way, I'm bitching but I've yet to taste it firsthand, it might be a good move. But whatever the outcome, I'm definitely ready for a change of environment. Time to step up and live life.

De javu

Just before heading out to the restaurant, I heard a loud crash at the front of my gate. Pacing myself to see what was happening, I saw an uattended mountain bike right in front and some giggling voices. As I opened the gate I could see 3 young kampung boys looking from the bottom of the street. They had fear in their eyes. I motioned them to come over. Before I could even utter a word, one of the boys apologized. Obviously I had put on a stone cold face. Why shouldn't I? One of the slanting bars on the gate was bent out of its original state.

One of them was rubbing his forehead as an indication he had collided against the gate. I could see tears streaming down his face. So I asked what were they thinking? One of them replied their brakes had failed them. My house is situated on a 45 degree slope and from their story, were actually decending without any brakes whatsoever. So they decided to turn into my gate!
One part of me was furious, I mean knowing their brakes were not in order, why go down the slope? But the other part of my was a bit relieved because had they gone down that slope, they would have no way of stopping and would meet with oncoming traffic like a T-junction. Come to think of it, they could be hit by a car going either way, or crash head-on into my neighbour, Dr.Saw's wall!

I got angry, but it wasn't at my gate anymore. They were just kids, around 15 at most. I then proceeded to tell them they could have been worst off than just a few bruises. They were all looking at the ground while I lectured them, unable to contain their guilt for wrongdoing.
As I dimissed them with a warning to be careful, they all turned and said "Sorry and thank you, uncle". As I walked back into the compound, I couldn't help but laugh lightly at their remark.
I remember not long ago, I was the one courting mischief and having to say thank you and sorry to an elderly for teaching me a lesson.
Feels just like dejavu...

Today's flava on yesterday's furnicha

retroish

I was browsing thru the internet and I came across this site retrojunk.com and I was immediately transported back in a time machine to the 80's, a truly memorable period in my life. Cartoons like Denver the Last Dinosaur, Heathcliff, Transformers, ThunderCats, series and sitcoms like Quantum Leap(my all time fav), 21 Jump Street, Who's The Boss, Knight Rider and so on...I was laughing and smiling while seeing footages that were part of my childhood.

'Time waits for no man' - Aah, so true. If I look back during that time, a lot has changed in my life. Can't imagine how mankind has progressed since two decades ago. Back then we didn't have the proper usage of the internet yet. Mobile phones were on analog configuration and they were huge(The bigger the better!). Cars were in manual transmission. Tennis and friends were the only important things in my life. Girls were considered disgusting(hahaha!). My parents were still looking really young..Ok you both still do (;

These days we've managed to step up and push for the best with new technologies and innovations. Look at our built in camera mobile phones equipped with bluetooth and GPRS. Cameras going digital and able to see the outcome of the shot taken 2 seconds ago. Cars with LCD screen maneuvering during parking. State of the art laptops and PDA's. Wooweee, I say we really sprinted ahead and achieved a lot in 20 years.
Today with information just a click away on the internet, we are spoilt with so many choices. Competition is fierce with so many brands trying their utmost to gain market share for their respective fields. So in today's world, only the strongest will survive and while being the champion, one must definitely strive to maintain and/or improve to stay on top on today's ever demanding needs and wants of the human race.

I like all these new gadgetry, artsy fartsy state of the art tech goods but my style really longs for the retro styled toys. Call me different but I like it that way. Well maybe a blend of both worlds. I can still drive my beloved old skool beemer with the company of this year's Pioneer sound system collection. Yup, and I like wearing my shirts and slacks with my Converse All Stars...I see frowns...I'm just a retro boy.

This Moment Of Happiness

If happiness only lies
In a place we don't exist
And only future days
Are one’s we miss
If satisfaction never comes
And dreams are unattained
Then you sacrificed your happiness
And only you’re to blame
The moment that we’re living
Should be lived with no regret
Don't let reaching for the future
Have you to obsessed
Find happiness
While you have your health
The evidence from pleasing others is
You may not please yourself

Eleven Minutes

Maria's tale

I now pronounce you...

Its was an unusually quiet Saturday night as Krish left for his business trip to Indonesia. That left Garrick and I as Bill spent time with the missus and Alan joining the company dinner. Started out slow enough as I was dying to have some beer. We went round to some spots but everywhere seemed crowded. In the end we popped by a pub called The Torch, in Hillside area.

It seemed like a nice pub which never really drew much patrons although its been there quite some time now. Garrick settled for a mocha ice blended while I took in a couple of Coronas'. As we sat chatting by the bar, various topics came up. See we both come from different family backgrounds but we seem to share similar common sense but different points of view. Talking to Garrick will always be like having a debate, well a friendly one because our views are always different but we mostly come up with very contrasting thoughts that make each of us see it from an exterior point of view. Get it? That's probably why I like having a chat with the guy. Its coz we seem to learn from each other and expand on that thought. So now we've got not only one but two solutions to a problem! Two heads are always better than one.

One of our discussions were marriage. We're in our mid 20's and lately, we both have close friends tying the knot. We talked about how not long ago we were just happy hanging out, having a drink, looking at birds..now we're staring at the impending matrimony in about what..5-6 years time? Time flies.
First time I blinked my eye, I was born into the world. Second time I blinked I was crying at kindergarden, refusing to leave my mother's side, third -I was in high school with a lot of mischief under my belt, fourth - my first girlfriend at 18 & also a wonderful kiss...and so the story goes...

Having lived 26 years of my life on earth, its hard to believe by the next blink I'll be staring into the eyes of the woman I truly love and saying 'I do'.
I still feel like a kid, well I'm not really that old, but yet I don't really feel I'm actually in my mid 20's. At this moment, I'm contented to just work hard and play hard for what happens...happens.

My man, Bill

Managed to miss Ally's birthday dinner at Tambun but priorities come first so I joined the crew at SS for some drinks. It was quite eventful considering everyone brought the missus along so as usual it was Garrick & I being paired off as the lovey dovey but hey, come next week I'm gonna be the sorry sod holding my own d*ck while having drinks.
SS wasn't the place I frequented but we all thought a change of scenery would be livelier. Turns out the night wasn't too bad but right in front of our table were people I used to be friends with. So both parties went along with the notion of being aware of each other's presence, but certainly trying really hard to deny it.

Bill brought the missus to join us which I can say..was rare. but kudos to him for letting her get a whiff of what animals we are muahahaha!!! But for some moments, I envied Bill. See, Bill was the straightest person I'd ever met. He's always telling the truth and being straightforward. Well, to me its really something rare coz he doesn't hide his feelings and I like that. He'd be the person to give you sensible point of views and always always the person one could rely on. From the corner of my eye, I peaked and everytime I did, I could see he was very happy with the missus. I'm glad for him. Really.

I had a lot of respect for Bill. He was the man with the schedule. Will never break his planned task for anything, well maybe the missus but nothing else. What we're lacking in our group is actually sticking to the schedule. Bill would always be spot on for every appointment but we weren't. I mean he's the one who's setting a really good example of what a responsible person should uphold. Maybe we take it for granted coz we're all such great friends. Lately he's been making it a point for us to really get our behinds to respective destinations on time.
Overall, I think Bill's a swell fella, maybe a little too straight but I'd definitely want him to be on my side than the opposite.

Right now, the friendship of me, Garrick, Bill & Krish are at its strongest. Although Alan seems to be coming into the picture since his transfer back here. But as for now, I can safely say we're bonding stronger than ever. Its the quality..not the quantity.

Time flies when..

Had a superb rest since its an off day but managed to wake up with a sore neck. I couldn't remember my sleeping positions(yep, its was a good rest indeed)but a few times I was off my pillow. I can't turn my head normally, it has to be slowly and gently. Either that or to rotate together with my shoulders when looking around.
Since I was lunching alone today, I went over to the club for a relaxing meal overlooking both the swimming pool and the sea. I liked doing this on my off days. Sometimes being alone allows you to rest your mind. I could stare at the ocean on hours end and there won't be anyone there to ask if I'm alright when in fact I am, just want to be lost in my own world.

Mind you, the day seems to go pretty fast when you aren't really doing anything. Straight after lunch I headed to the lounge to read an autobiography of Roy Keane -Manchester United's brilliant captain. It was nice, I got to devour his upbringing from a mediocre family in Ireland to his impending superstardom over sound of waves coming in and out. Before long, I checked my watch and it was already almost 4pm!! Eager to pick up where I left off I hurried to the dvd store to pick up some movies and while browsing thru the titles, the shutters of the shop comes down(Ok, its a not really a legit dvd shop but at RM8 a pop??)and I'm stuck in there with 3 english buffons criticizing and praising actors and storylines. I was a bit taken back because I thought to myself, what if the authorities managed to break into the place? Will I be arrested for buying a product of a duplicate? I certainly know the owner will be hauled off but what about us? Consumers? Anyways, I didn't let that bother me too much because after we were all done with our purchase, were shown out without any officers waiting outside..

Since I'm seldom home I decided to watch some telly, see if I can catch some Anthony Bourdain adventure. Unfortunately he wasn't on so I turned to Simpsons for some entertainment. Not long after it was starting to get dark and dinner would be next on the agenda. Decided to call up the guys and have a meal together instead of the usual family dinner since everyone's doing their own thing tonight. The call was made and the venue, Wong Kok. It was my first time there patronizing and I utterly have no idea why people like the food. Our dishes seemed bland in terms of color, taste and the rice very dry. The guys summed up theirs as terrible and won't be coming back again. Yet, this place is popular in the eating circle. I'm dumbfounded..

Good eating places are hard to come by these days. Its more commercial nowadays rather than quality assurances. Next week will be another hunt for a decent dining experience. As for today, its been a rather relaxing retreat and quality catch up with myself. I still think 24 hours a day isn't sufficient..
'Life's short, party hard'

Jude Law - definition of suave & style

Struggling to put the sails up

Lately I've been uncharacteristically quiet towards the boys. Particularly last weekend when we met up for drinks. I thought I was the only odd one out come next week when my best mate's gal will be back and that completes the trio of galfriends of the boys.

Sigh..I hate being alone. Shaking my head, I'm such a beginner at this. Part of me wants to find a companion but another part doesn't. I don't want to be going because I can't seem to forget the last one. One which took sacrifices, compromises, tears, arguements, laughters, patience, perseverence to build.. Grr ..no, I'm not angry, just somewhat puzzled and dazed. It seems my ship hasn't yet sailed so I seem to be stuck in a time warp of emotional distress. I can't seem to erase her smile, which I could tell just by listening to her voice..

Ahhh..tonight, please give me the chance to dream about my past..All I ask for is one night...

Zonked

I was somewhat baffled when I logged into my blog. I remember writing the first paragraph about watching the flying epic but I DO NOT recall the second one at all..Yeah, I've been restless and having a lot on my mind the last few days. A client, who also happens to be a doctor prescribed me some sleeping pills and that was the result. I couldn't remember a thing when I woke up. Remember blogging and watching 'Team America'..next thing, I was awoken by the digital alarm clock the next day.

It was a good rest altho short. No moodiness whatsoever (guess no one's lived to tell the tale of waking a person up with a less than 7hr sleep on a weekend), feeling quite jolly actually. So anyways, woke up early coz it was breakfast day. Now that Bill is back on the island, we're making it a point to have this ritual every weekend. We tried a new place called Leong Kee Huat - a dim sum joint but it was quite disappointing. We decided to try somewhere new from our usual Tai Tong, at least we know we won't be hurrying back for a second time. Any suggestions for great dim sum places?
Now that breakfast is established on weekends, its time to get back to the fitness routine. Heard the gym at the club is ready, but not the treadmills..darn. I really don't mind jogging on the tar road, just haven't been disciplining myself to do so. Yes I shall, I shall. Can't help it if my cooks are so darn brilliant!

Ok, its a blazing hot Sunday, but quiet and peaceful. Think I'll settle for a jog rather than the usual tea. Later then..

Just watched 'The Aviator' after a drink with the guys were cancelled. Aren't most geniuses eccentric? Pity with brilliance comes a tortured soul. Howard Hughes is definitely an untouchable in my book, he just couldn't fend off his inner demons. Definitely a brilliant man and kudos to Martin Scorsese for this wonderful epic.
I just popped some sleeping pills, and boy are they strong...I can't seem to be able to read my entried as they're all flying everywhere on the screen..and to imagine this wans't xanac. Ok, I'm gona try and complete an entry bere goin into slumberland...Gosh, the sentences dont' seem to be looking straighy so i think we're gonna stod here adn have great laughte the next. HGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGgoodnight pppppl

Bygones be bygones

Well its been quite a week! With the celebrations dying down and holiday friends heading back to their adopted nations, its back to the usual routine for this exhausted chum. Its been a gruelling week working and also hanging out with long lost friends who are on holiday. Towards the end, my body gave in and fell under the weather. Its been blazing hot on this little island and has brought about scores of flu and fever cases.

I just want to write that..I managed to patch differences with an old friend. We go way back and about four years ago, had a fall out due to my selfishness and ignorance. Being younger, I hadn't really made the right moves of a love interest and in the end destroying many friendships that were priceless. I was cast as a pariah and shunned. I don't blame them and I didn't really thought much about it. In life we are the ones responsible for our actions and in that I gained a lot of enemies. However, in those three years being with that someone, I was able to learn so many valuable lessons in life. I was able to see things differently and that differently meant a pure, uncorrupted envisage of everything in my life. Basically I saw more optimism than pessimism. Its like when the other person acknowledges your love and does so in return for the first time. Its that wonderful euphoria that rarely comes by in one's life...

So anyways, I breathed a sigh of relief. Glad that I managed to gain back a wonderful friend. Its not the end yet as there still is another..I'm still hoping that one day I'll be able to sit down to a great conversation with that person again. For now, I'm just so happy the first step was a successful one. I'm really hoping for more positives this year despite what astrologers predict. Like I said, one is responsible for their actions. Today's peace treaty has come to a conclusion. Now for the next...

Busy month

The group photo was a success with everyone turning up for the much hyped proceeding. It was almost a near impossibility to gather everyone of us for it. In the end, all fourteen very fine looking gentlemen posed with their million dollar smiles. A moment immortalized. It began as a crazy day coz the restaurant was at its full capacity and it was impossible for me to leave for the shoot. Luck was however on my side. The crew went on a drinkfest the night before and couldn't make it out of their beds so it was postponed by an hour. Bill had come by to pick me up and we got there right on the dot.

Its been a busy month with the CNY lunches and dinners taking place at the restaurant, coupled with night outs with the holiday boys. Traffic all around the island was just crazy. Out of towners were the main culprits! I always wondered, what's all the attraction this tiny island has to offer? Its laid back-ness? Not likely from the countless brushes with road rage! My friends tell me its the food that Penang has to offer. Folks here will travel near and far if the food is..CHEAP and GOOD. For my case, its a difficult pill to swallow when I get complaints about the price, how its cheaper in other eateries..I know, its part of the game. Criticism is a brutal presence in the food industry.

Its part of the everyday scenario no doubt. I'm just here to assure you get the best in everything when you step in..and maybe some 'Chok Dee'..

Classssssic

B for Breakfast

Finally! My wireless is working so I can actually blog from the comfort of my shangri-la than in the living room. Went out for lunch with Alice and Li Ling on Tuesday at this little Italian place called 'Belorama'? Serves very decent food at very reasonable prices. There were only 3 staff and the owner-from Albania, cooks.
I wouldn't mind going there for breakfast as I'm a huge breakfast fan. Ok..Only problem is..Who am I gonna drag along FOR breakfast? I could always wake up for breakfast at hotels no matter how late I go to bed. I can't explain it, but just getting up early to a hearty breakfast just makes my day. I was quite disappointed I missed breakfast on my last day in Bangkok as my flight was 7am and breakfast only started at 6!
Its difficult to find good places for scrambled/poached eggs, omelets, crisped bacon..Basically the works in Penang. It may be crazy early, but I'm definitely game if breakfast was on the cards.

Bangkok insight 2005

I'm back! What a holiday..I knew I was home when the auto-doors of Bangkok International Airport opened. Outside where the horrid traffic took place, taxi's waving for attention, honks coming from impatient drivers and the pleasant smile of the Thai people..Aaah, it was great to be back. I arrived at 10ish pm and wasted no time as I changed and went straight to the hottest club now in town called, Slim (S-iam L-ife I-n M-otion). Slim is a huge club located in RCA on Rama 9 road. The club boasts 3 rooms, a house music room, hip hop and a live band room.

The house music was great, the beats were perfect, most tracks were by underground dj's that weren't commercially well known. The hip hop room was packed to the brim with guys there to catch birds and birds there..to be caught. The live band room played popular Thai songs and it was great for me as I absorbed the Thai culture of clubbing to Thai pop music. As ever, Thai girls are to die for. I can't seem to explain but Malaysians or Singaporeans don't come close to their standards. They have a lovely facial feature, a very trim figure, and long long legs..Oh gawd my jaws dropped a couple hundred times while there.
The in thing over there now is to dress down..you know, like the ghetto fabulous look. And these girls pull it off brilliantly with their heavenly features..just heavenly.

Met up with my best mate, May and I got shocking news of his upcoming..engagement! Geez, to us, May was the ultimate player. No doubt about it. He was smooth in his operations and bagged a lot during his glory days. Now he's fallen head over heels for this equally wonderful girl and they seem inseparable. I mean what happened? You don't just lose your legendary status overnight right? No, I'm not jealous of May..but I still can't figure it out! I guess that's love, when it hits you, you get infected..the love bug. They both reminded me of my princess and I..how stable and in love we were. In fact, I did become envious at one point. But its a miracle, you'd say the same if you knew my man, May personally.

It was great to be back in Bangkok again. My lingo wasn't as sharp as it used to be, with a slight tinge of englishy accent involve when speaking. I could still pass for a thai..studying abroad! Haha.. I was really glad to see friends who seem to have vanished, but the truth was I had vanished instead. They were here all along. There's such a culture difference between Thais and Malaysians. The Thais seem more approachable, other than the fact of being friendlier but really.. I realized I missed the City of Angels so so much..

Overall, the break did me good. I went thru a lot of thinking and realizing. Life is what you want it to be, make it happen. Sometimes we need to take a break and look at things from another perspective. I'd be stale and I admit I have become, living here in Penang and not throwing myself in the race of achieving higher goals. Seeing the city again made me realized I'm still very much in my shell and I'm prepared for some major revamp this year.

I'd like to thank a fellow blogger, Ravi Vesely for his refreshing comments but most of all, his quote 'I'm trying to break the "cynical" habit when I observe the world, so my word for the year (and all the years to come) is 'Joy'.

Life is..Beer!

The happy couple

May & I

My version of 'Siam Life In Motion'

The photo shoot

Been encountering some difficulties with my wireless so I haven't been blogging as much as I'd like. Not much of entries since the turn of the new year but there'll be some activities going on this coming week. Travelling week!

Neeways, the gang are planning a photo session come CNY, with 'Mafia' being the theme and we're supposed to be dressed as sharp as the mobsters are well-known for. Garrick and I have been scouring around and we found this really old skool studio whose name cards are printed on little envelopes that hold your passport sized photos. It may seem like an easy task but it is by no means a piece of cake. Gathering the entire gang would be one tough assignment since we're all scattered around the globe. Nevertheless, Garrick did do something to wet our appetites for this photo shoot..Enjoy!

Boozefathers (L-R) Garrick, Bill, me & Krish

Season of loneliness

It hasn't been the best of starts for 2005 with a personal loss. Feeling a bit dazed, confused..not certain what to do. Didn't help its my day off with absolutely nothing to do..Called up Krish and had lunch with him. Was really thoughtful of him to take time off to keep me company.

Being alone is the worst at this moment. My mind wanders, it thinks, especially of the treasured memories.. I can feel my mind playing tricks on me, seeing that familiar face over here by the escalator, over there by the Nike Shop.. Is there such a thing as an emotional timebomb? Will I explode? Grrr..best mate still away on holiday..Ok, ok..I know I'm gonna have to deal with it on my own but I need the support of my frens.

I need to get away..Tsk, still about 2 plus weeks to go till the Bangkok trip. I'll find solace there. Already been marked down to do some damage to my liver with former uni mates. Still, temporary escape..Alright, gonna get a hold of myself. Its the new year, starting afresh. Gonna keep my head down and work hard..REAL hard.

Da Blues

Feeling lousy. Can't describe it. Maybe I can..in between exhausted and needy. I've worked really hard but not complaining as I reaped the rewards during the festivities. Never before have I been so exhausted. Imagine, being awake but unable to open the eyes. Besides being physically drained, I also feel alone. Haven't really spent much time with her because her sisters are back and busy with the wedding. Still, most of my allocated time has gone to her friends (but I can't complain coz she hasn't seen them in a while) and family.

She's been acting peculiar of late, and I've been really too tired to think too deep. I dunno..maybe I'm just physically and mentally pooped. Damn it, if it is then my paranoia is really playing mind games. Shan't think, just rest.. just rest..

Deepest Sympathies

I've been procrastinating my blog so I'll reblog about the past few haps later. Here now, I'd like to extend the greatest of sorrows to those who lost their loved ones and homes in the unexpected earthquake cum tsunami. Losing someone precious to nature is quite unfair as no one can possibly be blamed. No culprit can be brought to justice.

Seeing pictures of those clinging to dear life before succumbing to their untimely ends disturbs me a great deal. Because this was a new phenomena to occur especially in Malaysia, a lot of those perished were innocent, curious onlookers who wanted to find out what the white foam gathering out at sea was all about. But before any of those could turn and run, it was all but too late. Not long ago, I had a great holiday in Redang and while playing with the waves near the shore I could feel the currents slamming into me and dragging me back in. That was a tame wave barely half a foot high compared to the monster waves measuring as high as 8m crashing into people and pulling them out into the ocean.

I'm fortunate enough not to personally lose anyone in this tragedy but I somehow feel that I'm cherishing more of life now than I ever have. As I read CNN online, the total death toll in Asia has risen to 116,000... my heart just sank. Nature when at its best can be the most beautiful, priceless ever creations like rainbows after rain, the reflection of the moon off the sea on a clear beautiful night, the misty smoke from the river caused by plunging temperatures. It can be the most cruel of all with such devastation of the tsunami phenomena.

I thought our PM, Pak Lah deserved a pat on the back for urging fellow citizens not to celebrate the coming new year, but to pray for the perished, missing and the homeless. Although Malaysia suffered the least of most affected nations, Thailand on the other hand weren't so lucky. Having been to Phuket, Krabi and Phi Phi, I just can't imagine the devastation it went through, wiping out everything in sight..It is now a pile of debris at this once bustling, well-known island. Newspapers showing stiffed bodies littering the shores of the popular beach reduced me to tears at how these people were enjoying their hard earned break, but fate decided otherwise.

As we usher in the year 2005, I'd like to extend my deepest sympathies to those involved in the unfortunate calamity. Our thoughts go out to you all. Be strong, as life goes on...

Twista

My cat, Twista was tragically killed today by my father. I'm not a big fan of cats but Twista was different. He seemed more like a dog than a cat. Cats don't come when you call it to, well it depends on their mood basically. But Twista (I named it such because his tail was in a twist) wasn't an arrogant cat. It was different from its siblings and was a playful kitten right from the start, without a fear in the world of people.

I became atttached to it after noticing it warming up to me like my own pet dogs. Imagine me actually taking leftovers of fish and feeding it after carefully extracting small amounts of flesh. Everytime Twista saw or heard me, it'd come dashing from nowhere and brush itself against my shoes, typical attention seeker I admit but he does it in such a professional way it reminds of the the scene from Shrek 2 when the cat (voiced by Antonio Banderas) stops a bunch of knights with its innocent smile. I really can't believe he's gone...

Dad explained that Twista was under his car sleeping and as he let the handbrakes down for the car to move..*censored*
Its unbelievable.. I was just playing with him before leaving the restaurant. Its just gonna be so quiet without him around. Even my cooks were telling my dad to make up a story that Twista ran away, or was taken by some good samaritan for a proper home. But dad being dad, couldn't hide the truth and started with 'I have some bad news to tell you..'

Sigh.. today's blog is a dedication to ya, Twista. Rest in peace wherever you may be.

Twista June '04- Dec '04

This week & beyond

This week gone by has been a good one, and I hope to keep hold of the momentum. The restaurant has been doing well and weekends are super packed. I'm glad. Now for the next phase -Expansion. The sickening part is the slow response of the city council in getting anything approved. There are so many restaurants around illegally, i.e. No permit. I don't blame business operators as it takes a hell of a long time for our own state government to approve the necessary criteria in F&B. I was left fuming when I had submitted all the needed documents for the process and it was delayed over and over again. Finally after some big wig intervention, my license was approved- after three years.

Anyways, I'm still in the positive light as plans are hovering on the second phase of a new restaurant. I'll be getting the proposal from owners of e-Gate within this week to study the rent structure their management has drawn up. Still nothing is solid, but after seeing the place, and its magnificent view, one has to flash a big big smile. Gee, why do I seem so happy though? I think I've been hit by the festivity bug. Christmas is just round the corner and new years' a shout away.. Nah..Ok partly... Hohoho, princess is comin to town! Yippers, she'll be in by next week! I guess its all that combined together that's got me all excited. We got princess, BBQ, Christmas dinner, new year's countdown.. Then the new year begins, with new resolutions/aims/goals/targets. I really can't wait for all that to fall into place. Blog you later (;

Loy Krathong

November full moon shines,
Loy Krathong, Loy Krathong,
and the water's high in the river and local klong,
Loy Loy Krathong, Loy Loy Krathong,
Loy Krathong is here and everybody's full of cheer,
We're together at the klong,
Each one with his krathong,
As we push away we pray,
We can see a better day.

'Loy Krathong' - To float a lotus shaped vessel. It is a tradition for thais to celebrate this festivity by placing a candle, three joss-sticks, some flowers and coins in the vessel before saying a wish and a prayer, and setting it onto the water. We believe that it wads away sins and bad luck. Time to start the coming new year to be joyful, and happy as the sufferings are floated away.

I always attended Loy Krathong while living in Bangkok, and I must say its a really amazing celebration. Its one of those festivities one has to be present to witness and understand its true beauty. I remember since my university days on the occasion, prior plans would be made amongst friends and we'd be on our way to float them straight after classes.

It is popular to float them with your significant other. Both holding onto the lotus vessel, making a wish before setting it free. It made me feel good after saying my prayers and seeing my Krathong slowly float out to the river. Imagine the vessels being floated down the river, under a clear night's sky with the full moon shinning brightly making the waters bounce with its reflections - Makes me miss it especially this time of year. I'm just glad my time there did not go to waste as I learned so much and experienced the culture so rich I'm sure others will be envious of.

To all readers, wishing you a Happy Loy Krathong. Hoping all your bad luck will be cast away and ushering in a new era of positive notes. May you achieve success in your career, a blossoming love and a fulfilment of goals to the highest standard.

Happy Loy Krathong to my Thai friends & family -May, Dump, Kie, Tarn, N'Orn, Wa, Boy, Aey, Emma, Toto, Neung, Teddy, Jung, Joe, and O.

A traditional Krathong

Amazing treat

Happy 25th Birthday

After an absence of 8 years, I finally celebrated my birthday back home. I would say it was the best birthday party I've ever had back here in Penang. The venue was Glo, our usual clubbing fare. VIP spot.

I had many close and distant friends on the guest list, but some missing were my KL-based mates, Bill and Varian. The notable absentee would have to be..my princess of smiles. She did, however made her presence felt.

My best mate, Garrick arrived late (what's new?) as he was supposed to be my cameraman for the night. Mysteriously, a cake appeared from nowhere. Turning to him, all he could muster was "open it and find out".

I was a bit puzzled, was the person actually gonna write "Happy Birthday Jeremy, from xxx"? By midnight, everyone had gathered around me and the cake was opened to reveal "To my dearest quater egg"! (Michelle's been calling me that coz she thinks I'm a lot older than her. Is 5 years that much?) I instantly knew that came from my princess and I searched the crowd franctically for a familiar face.

As I searched, I noticed a grin from Garrick and knew he had a hand in it (Garrick's significant other and my princess had become close as they pursue their degrees in London).

Apparently she had called up Secret Recipe from London to make sure they wrote exactly just that for me to laugh about. It certainly made my night as I recalled our conversation during the day when I said I wished she could be here on this special day and she said she would.

As the birthday song was nearing an end, I closed my eyes, made a wish and blew out the candles. Then the party went back to full swing.

I had invited my brother and his friends whom I occasionally have a drink with, and they just clobbered me drink after drink. The pictures will attest, that how decent and well behaved I was at the beginning of the night, became a total wreck after copious amounts of a man's second best friend!

Although I did reminisce about how much wilder it'll be back in my adopted city of Bangkok, I couldn't help but think, this tiny island rocks too.

My mates deserve a pat on the back for making this a very very successful birthday bash. Last but not least, my princess of smiles for 'being there' and making it, a more meaningful birthday joy!

Here's to thanking them for a memorable 25th birthday. I really love you guys!

"To my dearest quater egg!"

Thank you, princess! *muaks*

Dave & I sharing a light moment

The 3-seconds rule

All out in full force, thanks guys!

My best mate, Garrick

Some brotherly lovin from Desmond & Sean

My mates' lovely lass, Ally

Not good..

By the end of the night - Mates, Pokkeroos & Krish

Emergency hotline?

I'm truly appalled by the emergency service we have here in this state. I don't know whether its the fact that this week is the Deepavali/Raya festivities but celebration or no celebration, emergencies do occur. My neighbor had fallen off the ladder while trimming the hedges from a high place and his forehead was bleeding profusely from the impact.

Why do they call it an emergency hotline when nobody picks up? I had to dial the operator to transfer me, or the only other alternative was to wait till someone picks up at the other end. It took about twenty long minutes before the call was responded but the dispatcher didn't know the location.. How difficult could Tanjung Bunga be?? Came up with an alternative to wait at Fatty Loh chicken rice to greet them but it took them an hour and twenty minutes (I timed them) to reach the destination. How could it take an hour and twenty minutes from General Hospital to Tanjung Bunga with the sirens on?? We'd told the operator he was bleeding profusely and needed quick medical attention. It was appalling! I was left to think, what if this was my Mum? Dad? Brother? Princess of smiles? A loved one? I was furious with their conduct and they showed no signs of hurrying any attention to my bleeding neighbor.. Emergencies are serious, otherwise there'd be no hotline or a number to reach for nothing.

Anyhows, I'm glad to hear he's recovering just fine..

My Princess of Smiles

It was 9ish in the morning and I had just slept a little over an hour before my cell rang. It was always my unconscious habit to lunge for anything that made noises in the mornings -cellular phones, house phones, alarm clocks, knocks on the doors.. I was however happy to hear a familiar voice. Michelle had just gotten back from the weekend in Amsterdam and I was glad she called to tell me all about it. Slumbering out of my one hour sleep for a two hour conversation, I had been thinking of my Princess of Smiles. Our relationship, although long distance was actually gaining depth and we're counting the days till December. She's one of a kind. The fun we have together was just spot on natural and eventhough simple fashioned, we enjoyed ourselves immensedly. We went thru a rough patch before but we've managed to put it aside and make this relationship stronger.

This was probably how I'd sum it up -The Royal London Circus. Our first major date. Never in a million years would I have brought a date to the circus.. Not especially someone who I was just in awe with standing beside to. Our dinner was a combo of greasy burgers with flat and diluted coke, followed by her request of cotton candy. From there we were all laughs and smiles watching the performance. It was just so comfortable, I didn't need to worry if she was ok, bored or embarrassed because she had the glow of satisfaction being there. I still couldn't believe I had brought her to the circus. To the modern day ultra-hip dating scene, that would probably have gone down as a flop but she gave me the thumbs up and impressed to be brought on a first date -packed with a whole load of major first impressions.. To the circus.

Princess of Smiles

A toast to long lost friends

Writing this blog with a thumping headache, I had gone out for drinks with a long lost friend back in my tennis playing days last night. Ming Tong, now known as Kenneth was a close friend during my teen years. Although we were buddies and coached by the same legend, we were adversaries on court. It was difficult having to play him in tournaments coz he was the type to take things personally and I dreaded at one tournament during the summer in '96. The first few games were tight with each of us holding serve, then he began to crumble under his own anger..He lost his head and the match. Difficult part? Shaking hands. The six footer looked away in disgust when approached to shake mine and didn't speak a word in the changing room.
This was a guy well known for his temperament and I hadn't seen him in years. Of all places, I bumped into him at KLCC's Burberry while holidaying with Michelle! After turning him down a number of times, I decided to take up Kenneth's offer. The night began slowly as we reminisce our younger days over a few beers. After that we headed over to Glo and had a bottle of hard liquor. Went unannounced and I had to meet other long lost friends, and so did Kenneth. A brother's friend was having his birthday party there and we ended up with a triumvirate drinking bash! I could vaguely remember what happened, but I remembered jumping, dancing, flirting with friends hahaha..But by 3am, Kenneth had to 'assist' me out of the club and into his car. Along the way, I definitely remember leaving a trail of various concocted alcoholic drinks while hanging out the passenger seat.
Even as I now suffer from last nights escapade, I'm glad I decided to take up Kenneth's offer. The memories of the 'Handshake' was all but a distant memory and nothing but a friendship renewed.

"The Grudge"

I was convinced to go watch 'The Grudge' by Garrick together with Krish and Ally. I wasn't a big fan of ghost movies and I'd heard this was really scary. Not wanting to let them know I'd squeal like a little girl, I kept my composure by putting the palm of my hand to my cheek and every horror scene that came along I'd put my index finger to my eye and wince the other.
'The Grudge' is the english version of 'Ju On', the Japanese ghost story that became a hit or should I say hair raiser around Asia. I'd seen..Ok, with the index finger in one eye and wincing the other, of the first and second part of this horror epic. I remember my date having to hold up her hand for me with every heart stopping moment. Its like me being the girl screaming and leaning my head over on her shoulder as she comforts me. Incidentally, she found it 'cute'...
The movie was originally about a man who murders his wife and son before taking his own life after he found out she had a major obsession for an American lecturer at a Japanese university. Those who had a direct contact with the house would either disappear, or die mysteriously.
As I winced through the movie, I felt the scary bits were actually the sound effects more than the optical effects. This time I didn't need to lean on anyone's shoulders *grin*

I'm having this overwhelming feeling of taking a sabbatical and going on a photography expedition but surely it won't go down too well with the upper echelons of the management. Haven't had the time to use the film camera to take exquisite pictures and moreover Shanne has taken the digital with him to Europe, so am unable to take my candid shots to visiting places. I'm seriously considering getting a digital camera that's powerful yet convenient. Been reading up the reviews in Stuff magazine and I'm still pondering which to get. Nikon? Canon? Pentax? Birthday around the corner, Christmas looming, Michelle's impending arrival, new year's celebrations..Lots to be taken. Alright, short one tonight. Early start tomorrow..*Click*

Reflections